Sunday, June 23, 2013

FOREVER YOUNG- getting my feet wet once again

Hi everyone

Yes I know it's been a while, but it's been a rough year for me since I lost my mom.  It will be one year this coming week, and still I haven't realized she is gone.  And with all the preparations and details I had to take care of, the grieving is just beginning, sad to say.

 But, I'll always remember she lived to a great age of 88 and 1/2 and would have been 89, so sooner or later, I would have had to face the inevitable. Don't we all.

Life is a precious gift, and I hope to use mine to it's fullest, even though at times I feel it's at a standstill, I believe God has a plan for all of us, and we just have to sit down, take a deep breath and figure out what it is, although the years for me are flying by, and I'm certainly no young chicken, but I'm not ancient either, and your age is only a number, it's how you feel inside that counts, at least that's what I keep telling myself. So there is still hope for me... lol... I truly believe this...

 I also remember, when I was twenty-five, I felt like fifty, because I had twins and that certainly took a lot of energy out of me, and then four years later, my daughter, so you see you don't have to be old to feel old, your children will make you feel that way no matter what age you thought you would like that analogy.

Okay, to continue, nothing big is happening right now, just trying to get my feet wet once again, trying to work myself into a daily writing routine, but my injury doesn't allow me to stay at my computer for a very long time, in fact, only for a short time, but what I can write in that time will hopefully be something good....

My injury has become a part of me, and I've come to realize after all these years that I do have limitations, even though I don't like it, and don't like telling people, and the fact that you can't see my injury( and I look good, well hopefully good on the outside), because it involves my back, neck, tissues, muscles, lack of mobility and numbness of the fingers, which is why it takes me so long to type, and then I make mistakes, which is frustrating, but you know what, I don't feel sorry for myself, I just keep plugging away, and I keep most of my pain to myself, because people just don't understand what I feel... and it's also difficult to explain

So given that, and not trying to make you depressed by reading my blog, I just had to get this off my chest, more or less, so I can begin writing my blog with a clean slate, to continue writing.. making my characters come alive, living through them and wanting to know everything there is to know about them, and to share my blog and my experiences with my loyal readers..... hope you're still out there.

take care, and please stay FOREVER YOUNG

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